doesn't matter. another thing matters.

Doesn't matter it started only yesterday.
doesn't matter it was online and just typing.
doesn't matter it is a bit messy, tense and spontaneous...But I feel it makes me closer to the final destination.
But it started. And I have it. And it gives me a lot of practical knowledge, some tips to survive in unknown environment. Environment which attracts me like magnette. I feel some where deep in my heart that this environment isn't that friendly to me as I wish and it doesn't have such extraordinary emotions concerning me. It's more sceptical, more cinic and hypocritic. But I noticed long time ago, these characteristics attract me somehow subconsciosly. To live on the edge, out of comfort zone in order to gain (or create?) another one to leave it afterwards to search for a new one and so on.

Btw officially 12 days are left. ups, already 11.
But practically it's around 33.
Yes, I have countdowns. Why? They wake me up from hibernation.